As I had made plans to see a friend today, I forced myself to get up at 8.00am. It was difficult and I did have the urge to keep lying under the quilt…..but then somehow managed to talk sense into myself!! I was reminded of The 5 second rule and used that to make myself move. Maybe there’s something in it after all……
The day here was glorious and I took the dog for a long walk/run over the park…she was so shattered from chasing the tennis ball that it was as much as she could do to have a drink before she collapsed onto the floor when we got home. I then went to catch up with a friend, which was lovely. Popped to the shop for a coffee and sandwich on the way home, and then the tiredness hit!! It’s insane….really I’ve not done very much at all…but I had to go and lie on the sofa for an hour.
Everyone keeps telling me that it’ll take time, and I know that’s true…but I am not a very good patient. Apparently grief can make you exhausted….I’m realising more and more that I need to open up about losing my Mum…but it’s so hard. Much as I’m dreading seeing Cruse, as it’s not an issue I find easy to discuss, I know that in the longer term it should help me move forward and hopefully that’ll impact on how I am generally.
3 things I’m grateful for today:
- Costa coffee – had a lovely hour chilling out.
- Gorgeous weather….I know I say this most days, but I am really appreciating it currently.
- Supportive and understanding friends.