Today, well in particular this morning, has been hard going. Just had no energy to get up, showered and moving. I don’t know if that was an after effect from yesterday, where I managed to do all of my ironing and clean out the pantry, before having to retreat to bed for a 3 hour sleep!! It’s ridiculous and frustrating……I need to start to feel better!
So I didn’t manage to post yesterday due to just being too tired. I hate that I missed it….but am now much more willing to accept that it’s ok, and that I have to go with whatever feels right at the time. To have forced myself to write a blog at 11.00pm would have been very tough….so I just decided that it was fine….doesn’t make me a failure.
After talking to a few colleagues (all mental health nurses) I’ve come to the conclusion that it could be the Fluoxetine that is sedating me….and have reduced the dose to 40mg today. I will discuss options with my GP on Thursday. I hate swapping medication, but I can’t function at anything above 30% of my normal self at the moment and it can’t carry on. I need to get back to work and to be able to do more at home with my family. My hubby forced me out this afternoon and it really helped. When I got home I had so much more motivation and actually did a bit of decluttering! The clutter in my house and in my head weigh me down….a simple life is still something I very much crave and aspire to. When I first started this blog, that was my intention, but unfortunately life events and illness got in the way. Maybe it’s something that I can gradually work towards again…..
3 things I’m grateful for today:
- Our dog and the joy she brings to us, as a family.
- Dog walking after dark and the chance to have a good chat with hubby.
- My sleep at night is generally improved.