OK so today was a much better day. I made myself get up and organised on time! That must be the first Saturday in months that we’ve arrived at my daughter’s trampolining early, with coffee in hand!! Felt quite impressed with myself . The stress of constantly being disorganised and running late, for me, has been tough. It’s so much nicer to feel relaxed and have time to spare.
It was a girlie day today, hubby and lads were off at the football. We watched a film, ate chocolate and had a lovely time together. I also managed to get some tasks done from my To-Do list..amazingly.
I’m working on prioritising tasks, I know that I can’t do it all. Have been trying the Eisenhower Matrix as a way of trying to prioritise what I do each day. Unfortunately, I’m still trying to work my way through the ‘URGENT’ tasks….but I’ll get there eventually.
I have some thoughts about personal/career goals and now just need a plan and to set some time aside to move forward on these. I’m quite excited at the thought of it really. What I’d love ultimately is to work for myself. I have no idea if it’ll happen, but I’m going to start working towards it. I’ve realised that my job, as much as I love it, is just taking too much out of me. I’ve a two day workshop booked up in May, looking at a potential change of career, but more than anything, I just want to try new things, meet new people and learn new skills.
I’ve worked a Nurse for 24 years….but the demands and expectations are far exceeding what is realistically possible, and it’s hard. It’s hard to feel that you can’t do the job that you want to do and were trained to do, due to lack of resources and the overwhelming amount of administration that the job now entails. Working directly with patients is absolutely fantastic and can be so rewarding, it’s just a shame that staff aren’t supported and so many of us are already in burnout, depressed or anxious. I never even considered the possibility that I could give up nursing, until the last 2-3 years. It’s so very sad.
So I’ll make a start on some new goals, and maybe might even open up about them here, at some point. For now they’re just dreams……so I need a good plan to get moving in the right direction. Wish me luck…
3 things I’m grateful for today:
- Blossom is now coming out on the trees….so beautiful.
- Having some energy.
- Time with my daughter.