Things are definitely looking up! The third good day in a row! To say I’m pleased is an understatement. Although I’m not 100% by any means, it feels good to not be in quite such a negative place. Today has been an day of sticking to a schedule and plans, actually achieving what I’d set out to do! I haven’t been able to focus, plan and concentrate like this for as long as I can remember.
Sleep continues to be a major issue, but I tend to think maybe that’s more habit now. I wake frequently during the night, can’t remember when I last slept all the way through. I’ve now started listening to the Calm app to try and help me get back to sleep. Once I’m awake, my mind starts ticking over and it’s very hard to switch off. I think this will just continue to be an issue for me, my family tend to have sleeping problems of one sort or another.
I know I’m feeling better, as I’m very much thinking about simplifying and decluttering again. Whilst I’ve not made a start, I think it’s something I will be working on again fairly soon. Over the last year I’ve done nothing about it, my life has felt chaotic and it’s just added to my problems. Being disorganised, unable to find what I need and generally avoiding what needs to be done has been hard going, and a lot has slipped through the net….but I did the best I could with how I was feeling at the time, I couldn’t have done any more. I’m normally so self-critical, a perfectionist who always expects more of herself than of anybody else. Thankfully I’ve developed some good awareness of this now and am making changes, challenging how I think and what I expect of myself.
Have restarted my bullet journal today, as a way of trying to keep track of what needs doing and capturing all the information I need to during the day. My short term memory remains poor, so I just have to accept that I have to write things down as I think of them. I either use Google Keep and put them on a Brain Dump list, or write them in a notebook/bullet journal. I’ll be going back to daily planning in the hope that I can be more productive, but also more aware of the need to factor in time for rest, self-care and maybe even some meditation. I always intend to do it, know it helps, but never seem to get round to doing it……..
So here’s looking forward to a positive week.
3 things I’m grateful for today:
- One to one time with my daughter whilst the lads were at the football. We laughed and joked and generally had a lovely time.
- Central heating…it was bloomin’ cold today and we even had some snow flurries!!!
- Louise Pentland for always making me smile with her Sunday uploads….she’s fab! Makes the ironing that bit more bearable!