I don’t quite know how I’ve ended up here! It’s certainly something I’d have never, ever considered a couple of years ago! A blog? What have I got to say? Would anybody find my writing remotely interesting anyway?? Over the past two or three years though, I’ve had some real ups and downs, stresses that I never imagined I’d encounter, and it’s made me take a long hard look at my life, forcing me to re-evaluate how I’ve been living, and craving change.
I’m a Mum of 3, 2 lads aged 18 and 16. My daughter is 12….going on 25…sound familiar? I have a fabulous husband, been married for 20 years this year and work as a Mental Health Nurse. Family is really important to us, and we’re very close to extended family. I’ve always been extremely close to my Mum…we had a really special relationship and she was my best friend.
So what happened to change everything? My Mum got the devastating news that she had Dementia, at the age of 68! Cue devastation to the whole family…something that was never anticipated, something that you think happens to other people…not your family. She had Lewy’s Bodies dementia, and sadly passed away in May 2018.
You may ask why this has led me to crave a simple life? I haven’t coped well and developed Depression meaning that I had to take some time away from the job I love, which is emotionally and mentally draining. Such a shock, I’d never experienced anything like it! Like most Mental Health Nurses, I wasn’t the greatest at looking after my own mental health….I tried…..and persevered at work but the cracks were obvious. I couldn’t focus or concentrate, my head felt like it was foggy. I wasn’t sleeping, eating and lost so much weight it was ridiculous. Colleagues encouraged me to take some time off, I didn’t listen. It took my Manager telling me that I had to go off sick, for the reality to hit home. I crashed, saw my GP and started my journey towards recovery.
Unfortunately this didn’t last. A few months ago, things began to slip. My GP has signed me off work, so I’m now working again at my recovery, but I know I have to make some significant changes, if I’m going to stay well in the future. I must admit, it’s not been easy and the exhaustion I’ve felt has been overwhelming.
I started this journey in 2017 into self development, listening to numerous Podcasts (The Minimalists, Life Made Simple, Edit Your Life Show and The Productive Woman to name but a few) and reading self-help books…looking for answers. The one theme that I keep coming back to is to simplify, to prioritise what is important to me, to make my life easier, to have more time, to do things that I love and enjoy.
So that’s where I’m at….restarting my recovery and my journey to simplify my life as far as possible. I don’t anticipate it will be an easy …and thought that sharing this in a blog might lead me to get some support along the way. It’s also a way of setting myself goals, knowing that I need to work to achieve them, so that I have something to say!
So that’s me…that’s where I’m at. I’m currently aiming to post every evening..hope you can come with me on the journey!
“Reduce the complexity of life by eliminating the needless wants of life, and the labours of life reduce themselves.” Edwin Way Teale